Jordan's Funeral

It was good to visit with family at Jordan Lyle's funeral. I'm grateful there is no true sorrow except sin. I'm grateful I don't have to judge. I'm grateful for my low drama life and associates. I don't regard drama as sincere, but I'm sure it's just a different way of expressing sincere feelings. I am grateful these extended family things aren't everyday. I'm not very good at them. That's because I'm not as Christlike, humble, charitable, forgiving, and non-judgmental as I should be.  I pray the Lord will give me the only gift that keeps me from being worthless:  charity. I struggle to love people naturally and freely. I automatically judge and get annoyed by people who believe or live differently than what I deem right. How disgustingly arrogant of me! Then I just want to leave. I have to totally stop myself analyze my feelings and sins. Then I have to make a labored decision to love others and make sure I am helping them feel valued, encouraged, and accepted. It is ridiculous how this is such a difficult, unnatural process for me. The Lord does help me change my attitude, but I someday (like tomorrow or a decade ago) I wish unconditional love and concern would just flow out of my heart without having to be reasoned, prodded, and prayed out.

Home for the Holidays

We have totally enjoyed relaxing at home this Christmas season. We've read, played games, swam, played in the snow, etc.  It's been nice to just have loss of family time. I'm so grateful Heavenly Father has bleed us with down time.  After a break it feels great to get back to work!

Moving Grandpa

Jaremy, Benjamin, Moroni, and Hyrum are moving Grandpa Michael today to his little rental house in Garland. I hope they are safe. I hate the thought of them getting hurt while moving something heavy. I also hope Michael doesn't pawn too much stuff onto them. He's a packrat. I'm glad I couldn't go. I'm a minimalist. I get annoyed and disgusted by hoarding. Whenever I help move someone or visit someone with a lot of stuff I go home and start throwing things away.

You have just got to read, "Lose 200 Pounds This Weekend" by Don Aslet. Don makes a very persuasive case for getting rid of junk. It holds you back in so many ways. If you have decided what is most important in life and have created a plan to get there, get rid of what you don't need to accomplish the plan. 

For instance, I got rid of tons of knitting supplies. Leaning to knit and knitting is way down on my priority list, so why store the stuff. Clear room(physically and mentally) to focus on top priorities. Having extra stuff around just distracts from what really needs to be done. Just because something is fun, develops a talent, or takes up time doesn't give it the right to be in your life. Life is short. You have a very limited time to serve and accomplish what God has sent you to earth to do. Money and other resources are also limited. So many people suffer in want while we buy more stupid, unnecessary stuff.

I can see so many people who are owned by their junk. It ruins their relationships, jobs, health, wealth, productivity, enjoyment, mobility,and purpose. They worship stuff.  They are continually shopping and paying for junk,  thinking about it, moving it, cleaning around it , fixing it, discussing it, storing it, and finding it.   They spend more time with their junk than they do praying, going to the temple, reading scriptures, or serving others.  Family and friends become unable to visit, especially if they have children.  Knick- knacks have become more important than children, grandchildren, friends, spouses, or anyone else. They eventually get to the point they can't handle it all alone. So they call neighbor kids, elders' quorums, or their own kids and grandkids to help them sort, store, transport, sell, or deal with their junk. They spread their problems and junk onto others. Or they die and leave insane amounts of stuff for others to go through, get rid of, and oddly, fight over.  Disgusting!

This is a huge problem with so many today. Jaremy and I consider ourselves minimalist in this time and country. However, even we can do much better. I get a high from dejunking. I think I'm going to go throw some stuff out. It's a great way to clear the mind.  I'm grateful Heavenly Father has led me to minimalism.  But I pray He will lead me to unconditionally love those who like their stuff.  I'm way too judgmental and mean. I get on a high horse when it comes to some people. I know this is way worse than collecting junk. I pray the Lord will change my heart. Not about the junk, but about the people. I pray He will help me sincerely love everyone.  I wish getting rid of a hard, judgmental heart was as easy as getting rid of stuff.

Upside-Down

We live in a crazy time. In a time when good is called evil and evil is called good. Anyone who stands for freedom, liberty, Christ, The Constitution, virtue, chastity, or honesty is persecuted, shamed, audited, and shut down.  Times are just as prophesied, yet still such wickedness and acceptance of such is shocking.
I'm eternally grateful we have the Gospel of Jesus Christ to guide us in this insane world. We know where to stand, we know how to act, we know of God's love and Atonement, we know we need to repent and we know how.  We know families are ordained of Good and can be eternal. What joy and happiness, what clarity and guidance!

Gingerbread Houses

Last night we had fun at cub scouts building Graham cracker ginger bread houses.  The boys made a big mess and lived it. We had terrific leaders that really pitched in with set up, construction, and clean-up. It would have been pretty overwhelming if it had just been me, but we had four other leaders and 15 boys.  I'm grateful Heavenly Father has helped me to change my perspective on my calling. I know it is what he wants me to do; therefore, I can do it. I can get through crazy evenings of trying to for everything in, because He will help and guide me. I can look for chances to share the love of God and my testimony of His Son with the cubs. So as things get a bit crazy around dinner time when I need to be leaving I take great comfort in knowing this is what I need to be doing and I just try to balance it all the best I can. The Lord helps me stay calm and kind. I'm so grateful for His gentle guidance.

Dear Natalie

Dear Natalie,

Happy Birthday!!!  I can't believe you are eleven.  It seems like just yesterday you were born.
You have been a glowing light in our family ever since that first day.  You are always so cheerful and optimistic.  Heavenly Father knew we needed the constant sunshine you give.

You are very aware of the needs of the family.  You quietly go around fixing meals, cleaning rooms, dressing toddlers, teaching little ones, giving massages, and doing whatever else you can to lift and help. You could run this household better than I can.  You have a tender spot for babies, children, the elderly, and anyone who needs comfort and help.  What would we do without you?!

You are brilliant!  You work hard in your school and love to learn.  You are very well organized and self-motivated.  You can plow through a to-do list and stick to hard tasks until they are completed.  You are a beautiful reader.  We all love listening to you.

Heavenly Father has blessed us so much by letting us have our dear, sweet Natalie in our family. Continue to stay close to the Lord by always praying (really praying), keeping the commandments, reading your scriptures, and remembering how much He loves you.

You are a beautiful girl!  Even if you were ugly on the outside your inner beauty would shine so brightly you would look beautiful no matter what.  You have an intense sparkle in those gorgeous eyes of yours that comes from the purity, happiness, and love in your heart.  Thank you for being such a wonderful example to all of us!  I love you ever so much!!! You are so very precious!!!

Happy Birthday!!!

Love,

Mama

Strengthened

We are on the edge financially. The company Jaremy works for is doing great, but not as well as would be required for big raises and bonuses we need.  I'm grateful we know happiness doesn't depend on a bunch of stuff. However, I catch myself worrying about launching children on missions and to school. I worry about having space for extended family parties and such. I want to get out of debt and become self-reliant and prepared, but I feel we are skating on thin ice. I ask for the Lord's guidance and help, but I'm slow to recognize the answers. I'm grateful for challenges; they are great opportunities for growing and becoming strengthened. I pray I will be teachable enough to become what the Lord wants me to be and faithful enough to do what the Lord wants me to do.

Clothes Storage

I'm so grateful for Heavenly Father's prophets and their counsel about storage.  We have been so blessed by it. Today I was so uncomfortable in my normal clothes. I thought I would have to wait until next month when we had more money for maternity garments. But I checked my clothes storage and there were several new pairs of garments. What a blessing to be prepared!

Adelynn and Tank Tell All

T (4): Our family is great! We always share. And we are nice. That's all!
A (2): I got a horse for my birthday. I ate oranges today. They were yummy! I went to the store with Jessica and Benjamin. I did school today.
T: I did all my stars. That was a lot of work. Learning is fun! I like to learn how to read.
A: I like Duggars. I like to run around at the gym. I am fast!

I'm so grateful for my cute, precious, little ones sent from God.

Kitchen Help

My little ones are always in the kitchen with me.  Adelynn (2) helps me do the dishes, measure flour, and mix everything.  Yesterday she was "washing" dishes in the sink, having a big time! Water was running all over the counter, down the cabinets, and into a puddle on the floor.  I know most moms would not be happy about this, but I was thrilled.  She feels like she is contributing.  It is also great sensory/motor play and precious bonding time with Mom.  After she was done she helped wipe up all the water.  She has excellent cleaning habits.  She puts things away when she is done, she closes cabinet and drawer doors, and she throws things right in the garbage.  She is a terrific counter and knows what comes next in bread or pancake batter.  This all comes from being welcomed in the kitchen.  When I read what Jesus said, "I have commanded that none of you should go away, but rather have commanded that ye should come unto me, that ye might feel and see; even so shall ye do unto the world," (3 Nephi 18:25) I thought this is what my attitude should be toward my children.  They should be able to feel and see and do right along with me.  It is not always the cleanest or most convenient while they are tiny, but it is still cherished time.

Soon they are making bread and cinnamon rolls all by themselves by the age of six.  They are cooking lasagna, enchiladas, and chili from scratch unassisted at ten.  In fact, there isn't anything my Natalie (10) can't make by herself.  She throws together salads and fruit shakes.  She loves to get online and try new recipes.  It's so nice to have one of the kids beg to make a meal and know that they are perfectly capable of pulling it off.  And we don't use boxes or cans around here.  We cook from scratch.  Not only that they can leave the kitchen completely clean too.  We have 6 people in our family who can make huge batches of delicious bread all by themselves.  They grind the wheat and everything.  That saves our family tons of money and me tons of time.

It is really sweet to see the big kids eagerly welcome the little ones to work beside them as well.  They are terrific teachers and kind mentors.  When Jaremy encouraged me to take this approach with the kids when they were all small it was difficult and a bit overwhelming.  But how it has paid off!!! We all love being together in the kitchen.  We can whip up a meal in no time and clean up quickly as well.  I'm so grateful Heavenly Father invites us to learn by doing His work with Him.  I hope I can catch on as fast as my kids have in the kitchen.

Caroling

Yesterday we made cinnamon rolls to take to some of our neighbors. We were going to meet some people in or ward and share our testimony of Christ with them by singing Christmas songs.  However, the plates of cinnamon rolls took a lot longer than anticipated. I was worried all our work would be wasted because we wouldn't have time to deliver them before it was too late at night for visits. I yelled and scolded. I whined about why we try to do such things in the first place because our efforts often flop.  I complained about the cold, dark, snowy, dangerous night.  I worried about getting the van stuck in the snow and about finding addresses in the dark.  Let's just say I was miserable and made sure the kids were too. I wasn't exactly filled with the Spirit, just the opposite. How were we suppose to testify of Christ when I drove the Spirit out the window.  Of course, that made me feel even worse. Well, after a lot of apologizing, praying, and singing we made it through the night. Not our best night, but at least I didn't abandon ship. My poor kids! We visited seven houses. Tonight we will go out again. This time I will speak with love, kindness, patience, gratitude, optimism, and hope. I will keep the Holy Ghost as my companion. Tonight will be tons better! I'm so grateful for a family and a Heavenly Father who are willing to forgive me when I am terrible.

Pregnancy Challenges

I don't know what I was thinking, but I thought this pregnancy would be easier. It's not! My emotions have really been affected. I don't usually have a problem with this at all. But lately I have to fight tears, fight antisocial feelings (I mean I don't really care to be with anyone except my family), and fight a bit of melancholy.  I feel tired and hungry all the time. I've been putting on the weight. I just don't feel good or like myself much. Winter makes it all the more difficult. It's easier when you can get outside, soak in sunshine, and exercise and garden in the great outdoors for hours on end. It lifts the spirits and strengthens the body.  Stresses seem to be adding up and I don't have the physical or emotional energy to deal with them.  But I am so excited for the baby. All this trivial stuff just hopefully makes me more compassionate. I just have to push myself and do what I should, not what I feel like. Heavenly Father will help me get through the tough moments and phases that are part of every pregnancy. For this I am grateful. I also am grateful for the experience that has shown me these feelings and struggles are temporary. I do return to normal. And normal in my case is wonderful!

Morning Study

Outside World

I am so happily busy with my sweet family of almost eleven that I don't get out much.  I love teaching, cooking, cleaning, cuddling, reading, and exercising with my family.  However, I sometimes wonder if I'm doing enough in the Lord's kingdom outside my home.  I need to visit neighbors, attend the temple, reach out to those I'm called to serve, and share the gospel.  Now that morning sickness is over hopefully I can do more of that again.  I want to please the Lord and do His will, so I need to push myself out of my comfort zone and home and get to work.

Nap Time

I'm so grateful that I can take a break everyday and have a nap.  I think I would go insane without one.  It's been a great, productive morning.  But about this time everyday I grind to a halt.  My energy disappears and I become a vegetable.  I'm grateful Heavenly Father has given us this simple way to boost our energy and productivity again.  The little kids go up to their beds and Adelynn lies down with me.  She holds my hand as she goes to sleep.  We sleep for about an hour and a half.  When we wake up we are new people.  We are filled with energy and are ready to kick it into gear again.  Well, I'm going to go drag myself into bed.  Good night!

Puzzles

Last night we listened to Christmas music while we did two 300 piece puzzles together for family home evening.  We separated onto the two ends of the table: boys against girls.  We raced to see who could finish their puzzle first.  Boys won!  But we all had a great time! I hope all the kids remember these good times, cherish them, and continue spending lots of wonderful time with their future families.  Heavenly Father has blessed us so much!  We have all the things that are most important and tons of things that are just nice.  We are so richly blessed!

MIni Workouts

Just to get my blood flowing through out the day I do mini workouts (10 minutes).  We dance, walk, lift weights, whatever.  It feels great to move and stretch.  I'm so grateful Heavenly Father has given us little ways we can improve our health and energy.  I think I'll do one now before breakfast!

Separated Adventure

Jaremy and six of the kids went up for the Butler family Thanksgiving party yesterday. They slept at Grandma Deborah's house last night. Jessica had to work and I am not driving long distances for fear of getting terrible headaches during pregnancy again. We kept Adelynn home with us. We made pharaoh, played hide'n seek and duck, duck, goose, read books, danced, cooked, cleaned, and totally enjoyed being together. Of course, we missed the rest of the family too. Hopefully, they will be home soon. The house is entirely too quiet! I'm so grateful for my sweet family.  I'm also glad Heavenly Father gives us chances now and again to spend one-on-one time together.

Tank and Hyrum's Plans

When Hyrum grows up he want to invent a hydro-solar powered car.  He so smart he'll do it too!  He is amazing at creating, noticing details, and thinking mechanically.

Tank wants to be a dad, missionary, cowboy, and firefighter.  He wants to own a factory that makes flying cars.  He's so cute!

All my kids will be able to do anything they put their minds to.  They are super geniuses!  I'm so grateful I get to be with them and cheer them on.  Heavenly Father has great plans in store for them, maybe even more important than being a cowboy.  I hope I can help them find the Lord's plan for them.

Lullabies

This was a wonderful, busy day! We had a lovely time at Kami's house for Thanksgiving.  We had fun cooking and cleaning as a family before we left to go to the Laney's house. There haven't been any quiet moments untiljust a minute ago when I sang some lullabies as I rocked Adelynn before putting her in bed. I sang my prayers through hymns. I hope Heavenly Father knows how grateful I am for my rich, amazing, beautiful life! I am surrounded by my dear ones, we have excellent health, we have way more than plenty, and we have the fullness of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I try to thank Heavenly Father in silent prayer as I go through the day for His multitude of tender mercies that He showers down upon us.

Just a little thing yesterday... We went shoe shopping for some of the kids.  I never find shoes that work for my wide feet, look nice, don't have a high heel, and are a good price. Yesterday I quickly found shoes that I love and for way under $20. Most shoes are at least $50-100 nowadays. So awesome deal! I bought two pairs for me and one for Natalie. Heavenly Father didn't have to bless us with shoes that were just right, but He did!

He also blesses its with huge things....freedom, salvation, eternal families, the gorgeous earth, etc. "Praise to the Lord! The Almighty, The King of Salvation!"

Adelynn's Birthday

Yesterday was our sweet Adelynn's second birthday!  She is a joy! Everyone adores her and showers her with attention and love! She brings so many laughs and smiles! She is smarter than a whip and cuter than a button! Heavenly Father knew we couldn't do without her! I praise His name for sending her to our family!

Desire of Our Hearts

I'm so grateful Heavenly Father grants us the desires of our hearts. Maybe not in this life, but in the next. I only hope my desires will be completely righteous and full of love and not for the vain things of the world. I desire to always help, protect, love, train, and teach children. But maybe Heavenly Father had other plans for my life. In that case I will gladly do what the Lord desires of me.  For hopefully that is my greatest desire, to do the will of the Lord.

Kids to the Temple

This afternoon Jessica, Benjamin, and Moroni went to the temple together.  What a neat thing to do with their time!  They are booked with homework, jobs, chores, scouts, working out, etc.  Yet they made time to do the most important things!  Jaremy did the same thing yesterday.  He got up and attended the 5:30am session at the temple.  I'm grateful for their examples.  They inspire me to get to the temple.  Now that I'm not so sick I will go more often.  Heavenly Father gives us extra spiritual power when we serve in His house.

Little Angels

I'm so blessed to be a mother of little angels. A few minutes ago Adelynn woke up too early from her nap. I went in and laid next to her and held her hand until she calmed down and drifted back to sleep. I just stared at her sweet, beautiful face, totally at peace. I'm so blessed to be the one that brings comfort to my little ones.  I wish I could help more precious, innocent children.  I'm grateful the lord has blessed me with my brood. I adore them; they are my dearest treasure!

Motion Headaches

I've finally figured out I get massive headaches from motion sickness.  Yesterday we drove up to visit grandparents, 2 hours up, 2 hours down.  My head felt like it was going to split open. Sometimes ginger ale, pretzels, and gingersnaps work.  Last night they didn't.  Because I'm pregnant I couldn't take Ibuprofen.  So I was feeling terrible.  Jessica massaged my head then Jaremy gave me a massage.  I'm so blessed to have a family who cares and helps me.  I don't know what I'd do without them.  I took a couple hot baths and just walked around in the dark house trying not to go crazy.  I'm grateful Heavenly Father has blessed us with hot water.  It is so soothing.  I'm grateful I know Heavenly Father is aware of my pain and loves me.  I ask Him to teach me what I'm suppose to learn from the pain.  I finally broke down and took some Tylenol so at least I could sleep.  Today I've felt pretty rough again.  I can't stand pain.  I want to help take away others pain.  I can't stand the thought of anyone having pain.

Eggs and Bread

This morning as I woke up I wished I had some bread to go with some eggs. My tummy was troubled like it often is lately. However, I knew I didn't have any bread left and it would be hours of nausea before I could make some. But as I entered the kitchen there was a huge bag of rolls on the counter. The boys had brought leftovers home from a Mutual dinner they had last night.  Heavenly Father cares for us in the big and little needs. He is aware of everything and loves to give us good things. This bread blessing makes me want to be aware of others more and share my blessings (little and big). By the way they hit the spot and were delicious.

Making Money

The boys have been working hard on their window washing business. It is a challenge to keep up with all the details such as who paid, names, addresses, appointments, savings, tithes and offerings, and spending.

The Plight of Children

I have cried myself to sleep a couple times lately because of the terrible things children throughout the world are suffering.  There is so much wickedness in the world.  Children are often the victims of evil, not to mention natural disasters.  Last night I was sobbing.  I felt so useless to these dear children.  I could not rescue them.  I pleaded with the Lord for them and to know what I should do as little me.

Answers came in pieces throughout the night.  First, trust the Lord's plan.  They are His children and He is more than aware of them.  Everything will be made gloriously right to them in the end.  I need to trust the Lord and His salvation.  Second, I need to create islands of sunshine for my own children and the children in my life.  Things might get really terrible in these winding up scenes.  But with faith in Christ there still must be much of laughter, playing, cuddling, singing, and loving.  I can bring joy, laughter, and pure kindness into the lives of children.  Third,  I am training my children how to create these havens or islands of sunshine.  They will create them for their children and others.  The love of Christ and the peace that comes from Him will spread in power and reality.

This morning I woke up feeling at peace.  I will create islands of sunshine!  I will scoop these precious, little ones in my arms and teach them of Christ.  I will twirl and dance with them.  I will play tag and hide 'n seek with them.  I will snuggle on the couch and read to them.  I will make funny faces and smile and laugh more.  I will trust the Lord to take care of the rest.  His arm is truly great!  He is a loving Father with all wisdom and power.

Park

Applesauce

While I've been ironing, lifting weights, and such Moroni (12), Natalie, Hyrum, Tank, and Adelynn have been making applesauce. They are working so well together. Tank washes, Adelynn moves cut apples from a bowl to a pot, Natalie and Hyrum cut apples, and Moroni cooks and purees. They have kept a tidy kitchen as well. Amazing!

Ella was busy folding a huge pile of laundry on the couch. Jessica and Benjamin are studying for their AP Chemistry class at the dining table.

It's been a great morning! The lay few days I haven't had a much morning sickness. What a blessing!! I'm grateful Heavenly Father lets us feel the weakness of the flesh on occasion. It helps me develop sympathy and humility. But I'm ever so grateful when I feel normal and healthy!

Raking Leaves

The kids are out enjoying raking leaves.  Tank (4) is blowing them with the shop vac, having a fabulous time!  It's such a gorgeous Saturday!

The big boys are at a Scout camp, but should be returning shortly.  Then we will do a bit of yard work.  The boys have a window job this afternoon.  Awesome!  Jessica is going to a movie with her friend this morning.  Finally, she is doing something with a friend!  Around noon Jaremy is going to help Benjamin and Jessica with their AP Chemistry.  I'm going to try making applesauce.  Sometimes I mean well, but get sick.  But in a couple weeks morning sickness will be gone.  Hurray!!!  This evening Jessica is working at China Chefs.  We will get everyone bathed and read for Sunday.  It's going to be a great Saturday!

I'm so grateful Heavenly Father sends us lots of wonderful, simple days!!!

Reading

I'm so grateful Heavenly Father has blessed us with great books. We are reading books by Dr. Ben Carson right now.  Excellent! I just ordered an audio nursing course.  On YouTube we watch fascinating lectures and tutorials. We have so much knowledge right at our finger tips! We are so blessed! Our whole family can get a world-class education right at home for practically free. Amazing! I just hope I can choose the knowledge Heavenly Father needs me to have to improve our lives and serve others.

Dancing

When I start to feel nauseous we turn on some fun, upbeat songs and dance.  It lifts my spirits and eases my morning sickness. Oh, I wish it were just morning sickness, but mine is pretty much all the time.  But this is a great relief!  So is going on a walk outside! A beautiful thing!  I'm so grateful Heavenly Father has allowed me to be healthy enough to dance, walk, do yoga, and move around!

Large Families are Tons of Fun!

I am so grateful Heavenly Father has blessed us with a relatively, large family!  I'm so grateful baby nine is on the way!  We have so much fun together!  Homeschooling allows us to enjoy being together all the time!  We love it!!!!

Mother Teresa said, “Children are like flowers.  You can never have too many of them.”

We share this sentiment.  

We are all children of God.  Before we came to earth we lived with our Heavenly Father as His spirit children.  We rejoiced in the opportunity to come to earth to receive physical bodies created in His image. Of course, that requires being born.   We are partnering with God as we provide bodies for these precious, children of God.  We are honored to help as many spirits as we can to obtain their earthly bodies.  We are blessed to have these dear, sweet souls join our eternal family.  We welcome them with loving arms.  Our children are our greatest treasure and joy!  They are worth any sacrifice!

Our children are one another’s dearest friends!  They are inseparable!  Our house is a constant party!!!   While there is an epidemic of loneliness in many countries our children are surrounded by a huge family who cheers them on, waits for them, plays with them, and in short adores them.  We are together 24/7 and thrive on it!  Our home is filled with laughing, tickling, chasing, and joyful chaos.  As I am answering this question our five youngest and our huge dog are tearing around the house, yelling, and having the time of their lives.  Boredom never exists here!  There is always someone with whom to talk, play, or cuddle.

We lived in a large home for a couple of years, but we discovered something unexpected. We really only used the kitchen and large dining room.  We lived in those rooms.  We did all our homework, projects, reading, cooking, eating, planning, etc. in one big open kitchen and dining room.  The whole family gravitated to each other.  We would ask the teenagers, “Why don’t you go study upstairs or in your room where it is quiet?”  They would just say, “No, it doesn’t bother me.”  They wanted to be with everyone else and just be apart of the constant commotion. 

  Our kids feel terrible for only children! Or even for kids who only have one or a few siblings. Our house really feels like a constant party! It is filled with love from basement to attic! The Lord has given us such joy!

Vehicles

I think one of the blessings we have received from paying tithing is our appliances, vehicles, and home have required little or no repairs. This saves so much time, money, and stress. We also are very healthy and protected from accidents and injuries. Considering how many active children we have this its a miracle! I'm grateful for Elder Bednar's talk about tithing. It has helped me recognize even more blessing from the Lord. It has also helped me change my prayers to all for strength, wisdom, and courage instead of Heavenly Father just fixing problems or challenges for us. He has blessed us so much!

Jessica's First Job

Jessica got a job working as a server at China Chefs. It will give her an opportunity to practice her Chinese and earn a bit of money. I hope she enjoys the experience. I think she really will. I'm grateful Heavenly Father is looking or for my children's future.

Haystack

I use this blog as my personal journal.  I post it on the web, but I don't expect anyone to find it.  It is like a needle in a haystack.  Anyone who stumbles upon it probably finds it rather dull.  I don't have time to make it charming.  Sorry, I don't write it for an audience other than maybe me when I'm 90 to remember a few things.  Also I hope it gives my children and future grandchildren a little sample of how the Lord has blessed my life so deeply.

But if you did stumble on to this blog....WELCOME!  I hope you find as much happiness in your days as I do!  Heavenly Father truly loves each one of us!  Adores each one of us!!  We are in His watchful care.  Miracles happen everyday!  There are no coincidences!  Everyone is here on earth because we chose to come, receive a body, and follow our Savior.  If we follow Jesus Christ we will be filled with joy and peace regardless of our circumstances.  And the Lord will open the windows of heaven and provide the change and miracles we need.  So if you accidentally found this "note in a bottle" as it were, I would wish you the very best!  I may not know you.  You maybe on the other side of the world or next door.  But your kind Heavenly Father knows your every thought, your every trial, your very heart.  He loves you more than you can comprehend.  Again I wish you the most amazing and beautiful day of your life.

Your Friend,

Jennie

Gorgeous Fall Day

Gorgeous, golden leaves are everywhere!  Heavenly Father's artwork is breathtaking!  Just feeling the sunshine and autumn air is amazing!  We went for a little walk and scattered basil and chive seeds.  This afternoon I will make a green, raw soup with parsley, chard, onions, kale, and garlic from the garden.  I'm so grateful to Heavenly Father for leading me to eating healthy.  It makes a huge difference in my health and energy!  Well, I'm headed back out to do school with the kids in the sunshine.  We are just soaking in every moment.

October General Conference

I came to Conference with these questions.  I have already received some answers and will continue to seek answers as I study the words of the Lord.  I'm so blessed that Heavenly Father answers prayers and gives us His word through His servants to guide and direct us.

1. What does the Lord expect of me in regards to service outside the home during this phase of my life?  (i.e. missionary work, temple, family history, neighbors, extended family, etc.)  Now is the time.  Missionary work is the most important.  I can share the gospel with one person by Christmas.  I can testify of Christ in my everyday interactions (i.e. neighbors, store, cubscouts, etc.)  Share General Conference.
2. Should I try writing and compiling the footzoning kit to earn income and educate others right now?  Use even this opportunity to testify of Christ.  Put first things first and work on it when you can.
3. How can I encourage my family to become more spiritual (i.e. Sabbath day observance, personal scriptures and prayers, uplifting music, not wasting time on internet, etc.) without nagging? Conduct personal interviews, talk about Sunday lessons, 
4. How can we continue to change the culture of our family to one that expresses encouragement, patience, appreciation, and love?

General Conference Notes Spring 2013

Promptings, Goals, and Notes
President Monson

• attend temple weekly
• save for missions
• listen to Conference

President Packer

• age should bring great spiritual gains
• make morning scripture time happen and make it a spiritual feast as well as the Sabbath day and family home evening
• be diligent in family history and temple work
• keep covenants and commandments
• get finances and food storage in order
• teach family about the Atonement and the gift of the Holy Ghost
• stay in condition to respond to the promptings of the Holy Ghost (keep body healthy and strong, take quiet time to truly communicate with the Lord, follow promptings immediately, don't wait until you are perfect to follow promptings.  Pray and do the best you can at that time.)
• offer your testimony, time is short we don't have time for fluff

Bishop Davies

• truly renew covenants each week
• prepare for Sunday well in advance - first things first
• get up early to truly pray and study

Sayings We Like

Jaremy and I found some sayings we like.

You are my HAPPY!

Life is not about waiting for the storms to end,
but learning to dance in the rain.

Come what may
& love it!

Keep calm and carry on!

I'm a possibilitarian!!

Cutest Things

Tank is an adorable 4-year-old.  He is so committed to the Lord; the Lord is as real to Him as I am.
I wish I had time to write down all the cute things all my kids say and do.  I hope on the other side we get to rewind and remember.  But in the meantime here are a couple of the things Tank has said.
The other day he said, "I can't wait to get a puppy when I'm a dad.  But I won't get a weiner dog, because they don't have brains."
In Primary he had to finish the sentence, "I can show my love for the Savior by...."  He said, "by walking up to a red-headed girl and giving her a hug, if I can find one.  If I can't I'll just hug any girl."  His teachers about had a laughing fit.
I just adore my kids!  They are the best!!!

Kids in Gear

The kids have worked hard all week. They have already earned all their stars on their charts today. It is such a blessing to have them be self-motivated, especially when I'm not feeling very good (morning sickness). Heavenly Father is always looking out for us and preparing the way before us.

Hiking in Midway

On a hike this weekend I asked Ella if she could have anything she wanted in the work what would out be.  She said, "People!" Isn't that special that out of everything in the world she already knows what is most important! I'm so grateful to Heavenly Father for sending sweet children who know and do so much!

Top Five Priorities

No matter how healthy I am, pregnancy does take a lot of energy.  Hormone levels can fluctuate and make some days a struggle.  This is the exception, not the rule.  But for the days I am having a hard time staying vertical I fall back to my five main priorities.

1. Pray, study the scriptures, and write at least one of my blessings from God in my journal.
2. Get ready for the day.  You know brush my hair and teeth and get dressed.
3. Do some kind of workout, even if it is just a couple mini-workouts.
4. Feed my family, clean the kitchen, dining room, and living room, and do a batch of laundry.
5. Read to my kids.

On really hard days even just doing these things can seem daunting.  Thank goodness my kids and husband jump right in and help.  And I thank Heavenly Father the really difficult days rare.

Great Support

My family is so awesome!  As with any pregnancy there are those days that I can't seem to get vertical for long.  But my sweet kids just pick up the slack!  They read to and play with the little ones.  They fix meals and do dishes and laundry!  Today I've been feeling really weird (hot then cold, hot then cold again).  Maybe I have a touch of something.  But the kids are keeping things going.  Heavenly Father has blessed our family with some of the most thoughtful, hard-working, caring young people in the world!

Jaremy's Testimony

Today in Sacrament Meeting Jaremy bore his testimony. He basically shared if the Lord be with us who can be against us. He bore testimony of the Lord's love and concern for us.  I really appreciated him testifying of Christ! I'm blessed with a righteous husband who is also lots of fun! He is my best friend!

Hundreds of Pumpkins

It's a gorgeous fall day!  We cleared shelves down in the basement yesterday.  In fact we cleaned the whole basement.  Today we will haul hundreds of pumpkins and squash down to be stored on the shelves we cleared.  It's so fun to work together and see big projects get accomplished.  The Lord has blessed us so much with a fabulous harvest.  Just think of all the yummy pumpkin chocolate chip bread!  We make a very healthy version.  Think of all dinners of butternut squash steaming from the plates!

House Tidied

What the kids won't do for a cookie! Everything it's tidy for the moment! 
I'm still a bit tired from jogging 6.5 miles the morning with Benjamin. He it's so sweet to run with his slow Mom.  It's so fun to have a chance to run individually with my kids. It's a great time to talk and bond. We had a beautiful run around the lake at Day Break and then back home.  I cherish these opportunities to be with my kids before they launch.  That will happen way too soon! Heavenly Father has blessed me with great health to enjoy these moments.

Conference Weekend

I love Conference weekend.  It's been so inspirational and has answered several questions and worries I have been praying about.  What a blessing!!!  Heavenly Father sends His Spirit to guide us and prompt us personally.

I look forward to reading and taking down notes and promptings that I don't get to do all the time while I meet my family's needs during the weekend.  I'm glad I can go over the talks again and again in quiet moments.

The Priesthood holders of our family have just returned.  We have a tradition of having pie and ice cream after they return.

Free Country

I'm so grateful to live in the freest nation in the world.  Unfortunately, those freedoms are in real danger. Our morals as nation are slipping, families are falling apart, and tyranny threatens.  We pray for or beloved country. There are many good people who are aware of what it's going on and are willing to stand for the right. However, compared to those who are asleep (addicted to the meaningless) we are few. There are plenty,who I believe,  would usher in a communist government and all the death and destruction which accompanies such tyranny.  The Progressives call evil good and good evil. They claim they are compassionate, but they are just power hungry communists. They seem to have secret societies and secret deals.  God doesn't work in secret only evil does.  It is the last days, but I still am surprised by the evil "normal" people embrace.  I wonder how long until total meltdown, death, and destruction. I hope out never happens, but it seems to loom closer everyday. May we live worthy of the Lord's blessings and protection. He will save the righteous.

Cubscouts

This evening Hyrum and I went to Wolf den meeting.  It's fun to see the boys' excitement over learning and playing together.  We have great boys in our group.  I'm grateful Heavenly Father has given me this calling.  Sometimes I don't know how I'm going to fit it into my week, but it all works out.  Heavenly Father has blessed me with my amazing children that jump up to babysit, fix dinner, gather supplies, help each other with homework, etc.  I'm so blessed!!!  I owe so much to my dear family.

Ward Unity

It's fun to finally be able to look over the congregation and know many people.  It takes awhile to get to know names, faces, families, etc., but the more we do the better it feels.  Sister Emery is the Primary President. She is a grandma who just loves children. I want to be more like her.  Brother Brown, our Young Men's President volunteers for everything, is friendly to everyone, and pulls far more than his own weight. I'm encouraged by his example as well. The Bishopric works so hard in behalf of the ward.  My visiting teacher, Sister Barbara Butterfield, is a dear, grandma friend. She is so sweet, non-judgmental, and diligent. There are many people who I don't even know who come up and encourage us by telling us how great our family or children are. I appreciate their compliments and encouragement.  Yes,  there are some members who are critical of everyone and rather toxic.  Maybe their hormones are out of whack.  Poor things.  I'm grateful Heavenly Father has blessed us to live in a place where we are loved and where we can love. I'm glad we are needed here and we need the people around us.  I pay we can help create and solidify ward unity.  Then it is like a wonderful, loving family.

Gorgeous September Day

I'm expecting our ninth, sweet baby!  We are all so excited!!!  The kids can only talk baby.  How many babies?  When will he/she be born?  What will we name it?  How big is he/she?  I'm so glad they are thrilled.  They are disappointed that it will take nine whole months before they can hold he/she.  Heavenly Father has blessed us so much!  Children are such a joy!!!

This morning Hyrum and I ran 5 miles together.  It was beautiful!  I'm so blessed to have kids to run with.  Hyrum is such a good, smart, and amazing boy!  He kept with me the whole time.  Many mornings he gets himself up very early and accomplishes tons before we even wake up.  He has determination and discipline.  He pushes himself to do amazing things!  He is very smart!  He is very mechanically minded and detail oriented.  He finds out how things work.  He designs Lego creations like nobody's business and has done since he was four.  He is very forgiving.  I sometimes get frustrated by normal little boy messes and mistakes, but he quickly forgives me.  He still enjoys cuddling.  I'm so grateful for my sweet, dear Hyrum!  He is truly a precious son of God who has been saved to be to pass amazing things in his life.

Dentist

Even though going to the dentist isn't one of my favorite activities I am grateful our family can have healthy teeth. My little Tank (4) brought a rock with his name on it to give to the people that work at the dentist office. He said, "They are so nice and don't even yell at me. And they always give me stuff." He is such a thoughtful, sweet, mature, and funny guy!  He is always saying the cutest things.  I wish I had time to write them all down.  I will enjoy watching the reruns up in heaven.  I thank Heavenly Father that I can squeeze this amazing little guy!

Baby? Babies?

Right now it looks like I might be pregnant!  We are so excited! We will find out for sure in the morning. Tank (4) had been praying for "twins, or three twins, or how many babies You want to give us." He is so precious! So who knows maybe we will have quadruplets. That would be absolutely amazing! So would having one, sweet, dear baby! Children truly are "an heritage of the Lord!" We are so blessed! Our children bring us so much joy!

Running Inspiration

Jaremy is amazing!  He has been consistently meeting his running schedule and improving his time and distance.  I need to follow his excellent example.  Instead I feel tired, busy, etc. and don't go.  It's enough of that!  Wanting to go is not a prerequisite of exercise.  I'm grateful Heavenly Father has given me a spouse that inspires us by example!

Homeschool Humming Along

We are really making headway in the kids schooling. We enjoy learning together. Right now we are focused on the basics. Our days are busy, but simple and pleasurable.  The other day we read on the porch during a thunder storm. The kids climb up into trees with a good book and disappear.  We eat popcorn and shake while watching documentaries. We discuss current events and politics -- a lot.  The big kids take turns playing with the little ones while I help the other children with their math lessons. The dog insists on being in the middle of it all.  After studying all afternoon we ramble through the gardens harvesting dinner along the way.  The goal is to be beautiful, have the house tidied, be finished with school work, and have dinner on the table when Jaremy comes home.  It plays out like that about once  or twice a week.  However, most of the time my hair is a mess, dinner is more in the planning stage, and books and supplies are strung across the dining room and living room.  He is very patient and understanding.  Someday I will be able to have it all together every night. Still I absolutely love these days. I'm so grateful Heavenly Father has given us this amazing life and family.  Our garden is doing great and saving us tons of money. Our neighbors are wonderful. Our health is great. We have the gospel, plenty to eat, giggling children, books and sunsets to soak in, fluffy body pillows, yellow walls,  apples on our tree, a washer and dryer, a kind dog, trails to explore, soap, massages, four seasons, disposable diapers, darlings in diapers, pigtails, Lego maniacs, scriptures, children who love the scriptures, forest gardens, deer by the front porch, thunder storms, grandparents who call, dear friends and family, cuddle time, brooms, long eyelashes, lavender, midnight irrigation, naps, prophets, Christ's atonement, promotions from the Spirit, the internet, silly songs, the Piano Guys, glasses, star charts, and on and on.  The Lord gives us everything. This life is truly amazing! I hope I can spread the love and happiness and sheer joy I feel everyday!

Homeschooling

I'm so blessed to homeschool my children.  We have so much fun!  Today we watched the play, "Our Town."  We get to read the classics together, including the scriptures, and discuss them.  Perhaps we read a bit too much.  If that is possible...  Sometimes we don't focus enough on spelling, grammar, or geography.  But we are cultivating a love of learning, a love of great literature, a love of freedom, a love of family, and a love of God.  If at the end of their time with me they come away with a passion for those five things we will have been successful, even if somethings have slipped through the cracks.  They will be able to make up those things themselves when they need them.  They will keep learning the rest of their lives and know how to obtain knowledge for themselves.  I pray Heavenly Father will bless my efforts to educate my dear children.  I know He does.  I pray I can become better myself so that knowledge and excitement spread to my kids.  I love them so much!

Sick Kids

Most of the kids have had some kind of flu. Fever and painful breathing have been the symptoms. Heavenly Father has blessed us with herbs and essential oils. I've enjoyed giving the kids massages and footzoning them.

Jaremy has been so blessed at work. He its learning a lot and developing his leadership skills. I'm so grateful Heavenly Father had blessed him in this way.

Husband's Counsel

This morning I was excited and ready to start a big day of school with my children. However, Jaremy asked that I postpone school for a week our two and get caught up on things around the house. I was worried and disappointed. However, I am following his counsel. I pray I can teach my children ask they need to know and help them develop into the adults the Lord needs them to be. My time its so limited and I have so many things screaming for my attention. So I am tending to the house cleaning and organizing today. I have faith the Lord will help me as I try to have peace in our home and listen to my husband.

Dust Bowl

We watched a documentary about the dust bowl over the weekend. It was amazing! Although it did not explore religion in the movie I was very comforted to know that we have the Gospel. If we keep the commandments we can turn to the Lord and He will support us in our trials. He guides or lives and provides ways for us to keep His commandments if we are meek and lowly and follow Him.

Reading Together

Happy moments reading together! It's wonderful: the kids are taking turns reading the grader books to each other.  Heavenly Father has blessed us with many such happy moments.

We have also been blessed to be challenged financially. A family of ten is extremely hard to provide for. We will have to work hard and smart, keep the commandments, and rely on the Lord for His blessings. I'm grateful for the lean times. They help us get creative. They help us become more selfless. They help us realize what real needs are versus wants. They help us simplify. I love to simplify! When we are comfortable we don't stretch and grow as much. So I am very grateful Heavenly Father has given us this opportunity to improve ourselves and become closer to Him and to each other.

Goals and Family Home Evening

Last night we worked on our new year's resolutions.  We helped the kids prioritize their goals and write out plans for accomplishing them.  It was great!!!  We are accomplishing things it just seems so slow.  It seems we could be doing so much more and better.  So that's why we regrouped during family home evening last night.

I'm grateful Heavenly Father has sent people, books, ideas, etc. to help us become who he needs us to be and accomplish what he needs us to do.  I'm grateful the prophets have encouraged us to set goals and work diligently in bringing about much righteousness.

Now I must end this entry to turn on Chinese while we do the morning dishes and chores.  Learning Chinese is one of our goals.

Cottage Life

I'm so thankful to Heavenly Father for letting us have this little cottage, Ivy 'n Pine.  We live in a world that is busy and pursuing vain and selfish things.  Our home is extremely simple and quiet.  Not in volume, but lifestyle.

This morning while we did dishes, watched little ones, and ironed shirts we listened to Charles Dickens', Nicholas Nickleby.  It was wonderful.  We finished it after about 40 hours of listening over the last few weeks.

Moroni (12), Hyrum (8), and Ella (7) just finished finding treasures in the garden: peas, beans, zucchini, crooked-necked squash, sunburst squash, cuccumbers, edamame, peppers, and tomatoes.  We sliced up a few huge Armenian cuccumbers for lunch outside as a gentle thunderstorm rolled in.  Benjamin (14) has been teaching Natalie (10) her knots outdoor skills.  Jessica (16) is cleaning the van for trek.  Adelynn (1 1/2) has a scrub brush and is "helping."  Tank (4) just woke up and is explaining to everyone that bad guys pray to statues.  I (35) have been reading my scriptures surrounded by my children on the porch.  Adelynn is now requesting me to return there, so I shall.  What a lovely afternoon!  I love my little Cottage life!

Great Health Reminders

I get sidetracked by unhealthy food.  I don't know why, I know what is rawmazing food, but I still fall into bad habits sometimes.  I'm 15 pounds overweight, but worse yet I have caused unhealthy habits in Jaremy and Jessica to lead them to be unhealthy.  So I have watched some great YouTube videos about raw, whole foods.  I'm inspired to live as I should.  I will eat a totally raw food diet until my 36 birthday!  Do you know how hard that is!?  Mostly emotionally, but I can and will do it!  My family's health depends on it!  My future service in the kingdom depends on it!  My love life depends on it!  So there we go!  I'm grateful Heavenly Father has and will help me on this journey!

Hormones

Man! Rarely are my hormones out of whack, but sometimes I really have to fight myself and focus on others and Christ. I'm grateful Heavenly Father had shown
us the way of happiness no master what our bodies are doing.

Streets of Treats

Yesterday our ward had a get-to-know-you activity kinda of like trick-or-treating for the family without costumes. The part of the ward that everyone else came to visit made treats then waited to greet the other ward members who came to visit and get a treat. I must have been ornery last night. I really didn't want to be social, but my kids wouldn't hear of it. Our whole family ended up having a great time. I'm grateful Heavenly Father has blessed us with wards and with opportunities to change our moods.

Running with My Girls

This morning Jessica, Natalie and I jogged a 5K very slowly. It was wonderful just to be with them and visit and goof of a bit. The big boys watched the little ones for us while we were gone.  Now they are on their run. It sure is nice  to be able to switch off and become fit together as a family. Heavenly Father has blessed us to be close as a family. We have a great, active, adventurous, fun, literary, charitable, goal-accomplishing family culture. I love it! With families all over failing or just existing without really being a team or enjoying adventures together it really makes it obvious how blessed we are.

The Future

I was just praying to Heavenly Father that sometimes it would be nice to have a glimpse of our life five, ten, fifteen, etc. years into the future. But I struggle just doing what I should day-to-day. I think knowing the future might be overwhelming and distracting. So I will trust Heavenly Father and follow Him the best I can.

Buying Ivy 'n Pine (May 2012)

Jaremy is back from China!!!  I love having him home!  He is a great strength to our family.  It's been fun to hear about exotic lands to which I will probably never venture.  Oh, well!  Heavenly Father knows where he needs me so I'm content to do His will.

Today we are going to close on Ivy 'n Pine.  I'm excited to start on that adventure.

December 2011?

I am taking a footzoning class! I really enjoy the challenge of learning about the body and the foot. I like to play music while I rub people's feet; I enjoy the rhythm of the massage. But most of all I enjoy the the connection with the person I'm zoning. 

School Days

I love working with the kids on their training, goals, and education. Today has been a normal day of great literature, vocabulary, spelling, and such. Heavenly Father has bleed me to be apart of it all.

Answers to Prayer

Since we moved to Herriman I haven't been able to find my footzoning flashcards.  I could remake them, but it would take hours.  I asked Heavenly Father to help me find them.  I told Him I try to be organized, but it seems there is always plenty of room for improvement.  On Saturday we were cleaning the shop and found the cards in a automotive box.  Why they were there, I have no clue.  I would have never looked there for them.  I quickly thanked the Lord.

I have been praying about how my efforts are seen by the Lord.  Yesterday in church the Holy Ghost bore witness that certain parts of lessons and talks were for me.  I was chastened and comforted and encouraged. I'm so grateful that Heavenly Father listens to our prayers.  As we study His word answers come.  He truly guides us in specific ways.  I'm so grateful for the Savior who makes communicating with Heavenly Father possible.

Tony Grove

Our family has been so blessed to go to Tony Grove every summer for a day or week. It's so beautiful up there.  It's fun to get together with extended family as well. Yesterday we hiked to the Choir Seats, a huge rock formation. Then we spent the rest of the afternoon swimming in the lake. We have been blessed with safety on all of our many family outings. And blessed with great memories that bond us together.  Heavenly Father is truly glorious!

Read and Weed

Today we weeded the Miller's garden. It was nice and cool with a bit of sprinkling, a break from the heat, perfect gardening weather. As we weed we quite often listen to audio books. Today we finished "Cheaper by the Dozen." It's such a delightful book. We had many good laughs while we moved through the rows of the garden. What a blessing to live in this day and age! Work is play with a book being read in the background.  Heavenly Father has blessed us with a plethora of excellent literature. This afternoon we will venture back to the garden and begin Charles Dickens, "Nicholas Nickleby." Can't wait!

Hot Summer Days

The kids are a bit restive, because of the heat that keeps them inside doing schoolwork. I guess I need to spice things up a bit. Mothering seems to involve providing large and sundry amounts of motivation. I need to find quick and easy ways to inspire the kids to work hard and focus. I want them to learn more and more how to harness their own lives and motivate themselves. But in the meantime I better get some carrots. Maybe today's carrot can be a trip to the water park. I'm grateful Heavenly Father has blessed me with the chance to work with these dear ones!

Christlike Children

I'm so blessed to have dear children who minister to me, each other, and to all those around them. They jump at opportunities to help around the house and yard. They weed for hours in elderly neighbors gardens day after day. They include everyone. They instinctively pick up little ones and entertain and love them. They testify to each other and share their love of the Savior. They serve Him with all their hearts. They constantly inspire me to stretch and try harder. I love them with ask my heart.

Forget to Pray

It seems so often my morning starts before I do.  The kids, teens,  keep going long after I am done for the night. Babies, irrigating, dogs, etc. full my night. So sometimes I rush out of my room to meet the 24/7 demands of motherhood without saying my prayers. And shocker! Most of the time they don't stop for me to have my prayers. I have to ask someone to watch the baby and run block for me for just a minute or two.  Of course, I can't even use the bathroom without banging on the door and prayer time its no different. It can be so frustrating! However, I must keep trying! My prayers may be in sections throughout the day, but I know Heavenly Father answers them.For this I am grateful!

Jaremy's Work

Jaremy has been working like crazy at work.  He is putting in hours and effort like it's his own start-up.  He is stressed out of his mind.  We are praying for him and trying to keep up with things here.  I know things will eventually work out if we are faithful.  Our family's size and needs keep increasing, so we need a lot more money coming in.  I pray Heavenly Father will bless us to be able to go on missions, educate, feed, and cloth our children, get out of debt, and store a year's supply of food.  I'm grateful He has always blessed us.  We just need to live worthy of miracles.

Keep Moving Forward

Yesterday in my Mothers in Zion blog I reread a talk by President Kimball. It was an answer to prayer. I wondered of I should just give up on some of my goals and those of or kids and family. But he said we should reach for the stars.  President Kimball said with faith, prayer, and consistent work we would have success.  I pray we can. We are working on it. So maybe I just need more faith! We somehow must fund our boys' missions, get out of debt, get a year's supply, pay off our home, buy a bus, educate our children, and save for the future. Alone this is impossible, but with God it will happen.  We will work hard and add smart as we can. We will be diligent in accomplishing the goals that aren't dependent on money. The Lord will help us!

Brother Miller

Our dear friend and next door neighbor, Brother J.B. Miller, is in the hospital.  He is such a delight!  He's 82, but as spunky and hard-working as a teenager.  I put his name on the prayer roll at the temple today and we will keep him in our prayers.  I'm grateful Heavenly Father let us know this wonderful grandpa.

Hastening the Work Broadcast

I've listened to the leadership training given on Sunday by the Quorum of the Twelve. I listened while ironing and wiping dishes. It focused on missionary work. I was filled with the Spirit and inspired to get to work and not give up. I'm grateful for the missionary opportunities the Lord has given me to love His children and share His gospel. Tiu and Kingi have been an answer to my prayers to share the gospel. I met people in New York. I wish I had been able to bring up the gospel more worth them. I will get better with more practice. I wrote one gal a letter. I pray Heavenly Father will continue to give me these opportunities and that I won't let Him down.

Things Undone

Everyday there are things left undone.  Our yard looks pretty neglected.  The grass won't green up no matter what we do.  The soil is very poor.  There are weeds that we mow next to the road, because I don't believe in spraying.  We can't yet plant the flower garden in front of the porch because we will just ruin it when we rebuild the porch.  There are weeds growing in the cracks of the driveway, which are many.  All in all the place looks pretty redneck.  However, we work hard on it.  We have a huge garden (with harldy a weed) wrapped around the entire lot.  I'm excited about that.

The inside of the house is slowly improving.  Still Jessica is embarrassed to have friends come over.  So am I.  Yet I can't worry about what other people think.  We are doing the best we can with the time and resources we have.  That's all that matters to Heavenly Father.  I love our little place.

I know my extended family is disappointed in me, but I can't worry about that.  I've got precious, little ones to teach and train and have fun with.  That's so much more important than winning "Yard of the Month."I have no money and limited time to work with. So I must not let myself worry about people judging us.  Our family enjoys our life and yard.  That's what counts.  I enjoy it very much.  I just don't enjoy being judged, but I better get over that.  I'm grateful Heavenly Father has given us this beautiful place to live.  I'm grateful for thick stone walls.  My style is so different than others, but I love it.  So I have to trust my heart and not give a second's thought so what others might think.

New York

Jaremy and I had a great trip to NYC last week. Beautiful people, amazing city! Heavenly Father has so many children. He knows and loves each one dearly. I'm so grateful to know this!

Plenty of Good, Clean Water

We live in such a time of plenty and ease. I'm so grateful my little ones (Adelynn in the pictures) can experience the joy of playing in the hose while I experience the joy of sitting and reading my scriptures in the sunshine. We are so blessed! Heavenly Father has given us a "goodly land."

Working So Hard

Jaremy has been working so hard lately. Long, late hours! I worry for he needs his sleep. Heavenly Father has been blessing him though.  His projects have come together and he has been given enough energy to complete them. I'm so grateful!

Remodeling Fun

We have had a ton of fun painting. I'm so grateful Heavenly Father has blessed us with the energy to be creative and have fun while improving our surroundings.

Orthodontist

Today we are taking Jessica and Benjamin to the orthodontist. I'm so grateful Heavenly Father has blessed us with resources to care for our children. They are going to look so cute!

Walk with the Laneys

This evening we enjoyed a beautiful walk along the river with the Laneys. It is so nice to get cousins together and enjoy visiting. I'm grateful for the chance to live fairly close to Kami. She has always been a dear friend and blessing in my life!

Night Games

Last night or kids got together with some of the neighborhood kids and played night games over here. We have some great youth in our area. They had a fun time. I'm glad they get to do this once in a while. I'm grateful Heavenly Father has blessed us with friends.

Amazing Children

Moroni accidentally left the last post in my blog and not his. He is a very hard worker. He doesn't mention he did those things on his own. He just noticed they needed attention and got to work. All of my amazing children are like that! I love that he is grateful that we can work. Me too! I'm grateful my children enjoy working. Heavenly Father has blessed me to have some of the most amazing, valiant spirits as my children. I learn so much from them!

Some work

Today I cleaned  out the rabbit hutch  ,which was filthy. I also cleaned the back padio. We did some weeding in the garden too. We have bean blessed to hard a big garden.

Business Trip Surprise

Jaremy has been in Arizona on business for five days. The kids and I thought it would be fun to surprise him by painting the living room while he was away. We ripped out an ugly knick-knack shelf from the sixties, moved furniture around, prepped for painting, and drove in. We painted the walls a cheery yellow (Spun Honey), the floor a lovely green (Pacific Pine) which we antiqued, and the wood furniture and cabinets an antiqued white. It took us several crazy days, but the kids worked their guts out. We took turns painting, cleaning, cooking, and playing with the little ones. Thank goodness Jessica has her driver's license because during home improvement projects we make several trips to Lowes a day. Jaremy comes home in four hours or so. Hopefully, he will love it as much as we do! It is playful, cheerful, and full of energy. Herriman is a coded brown town, so a punch of color is an oasis. A still have 8 coats of polyurethane to go and several other details, but it's coming along. Hopefully, the kids will feel happy about it and feel comfortable about inviting friends over now and again. I'm grateful Heavenly Father blessed us with finding the right colors (the green floor was an answer to prayer, because everything else wasn't quoting). He also blessed us to enjoy working together and have us enough energy when a were tired and still in the thick of it. Heavenly Father truly cares about all the aspects of our lives.

Today we enjoyed the Sabbath by taking a beautiful walk in Bluffdale on the Jordan River Parkway after church and naps. The kids are so cute and fun! From the oldest through the youngest they delight my heart and make my soul sing. Praise to the Lord! He has given me these precious, precious gems. They are my dear, dear friends! I pray I can show them how much I adore and cherish them!

Visit to Honeyville

I took the kids to Mom's and Dad's today. We had a great salad and enjoyed visiting on the porch while Brook, our dog, ran in the fields and swam in the Salt Creek. Mom read to us from the scriptures about the signs of the times. We talked of the affairs of the world. We live in exciting, yet wicked times. Sometimes it seems doom it's eminent, but there is great hope and happiness in the gospel and in Zion. For this knowledge I am grateful.

Raw

I've been trying to go mostly raw for over a week. I just need to adjust my emotions and learn to focus outward and upward more. Then I will be in complete control and be content. I need to lose 14 pounds. I need to remember why it is important and remember the little, constant steps to excellent health and longevity. I'm grateful Heavenly Father has blessed me to learn so much about nutrition and health. I just need to increase my self-discipline and get on top of it!

Simple Pleasures

This morning I took the dogs out into the darkness. The air was fresh, the birds were stirring, and it was beautiful. I came in and took a hot bath. It felt great to be clean. I then tidied my room while visiting with Jaremy about the news and dreams. Then I nursed Adelynn while reading my scriptures. At this point Tank had climbed into bed with us and was wrestling with Jaremy. Adelynn is asking for more milk, so I have to go. Heavenly Father has so richly blessed me. It has been a wonderful morning and it its not even seven.

Tired

I'm a bit tired this morning. Maybe I just need to do a bit of yoga to get my energy flowing.

Today I saw a man taking time to teach a curious boy at the park about his metal detector. The boy and man were strangers to each other, but I witnessed their simple, kind interaction. I'm grateful for good people who take time to acknowledge and encourage one another. Some people, especially children and youth, have such a hard life. They need all the building-up we can give them. I'm grateful Heavenly Father gives us big and little opportunities to do this.

A Night Alone

For Mother's Day Jaremy packed up a bag for me and dropped me off at a hotel so I could relax, plan, and rejuvenate. It has been so nice! I've been able to repent, pray out loud, exercise, take a long shower, pray about the kids, etc. Jaremy came and took me to dinner with Adelynn (18 months). She misses Mommy a bit and wanted her milk. Jaremy is picking up the other kids right now (9:34pm) to go swimming here at the hotel. I just nursed Adelynn to sleep. It's shaping up to be a pretty late night for us. Jaremy it's planning on coming back after he takes the kids home to tuck me in. Then he will sleep with the kids at home and let me have a solid eight hours of sleep without dogs and babies. And of that's not enough, he and the kids cleaned the house and van while I've been here! Am I the luckiest woman alive! Jaremy is such a sweetheart! I'm so blessed to have such a wonderful family who loves and cares for me. I want to be an amazing wife and mother for them! Heavenly Father has given us heaven on earth: our families!

Great, Normal Day

Today I gave Benjamin a haircut, the big kids went to the temple, the little girls went visiting teaching with me, we played at the park, took naps, discussed conspiracy theories with Jessica, watched Duggars after moonbeams, weeded rhubarb with Jaremy in the twilight, and just had a great day.   Heavenly Father has really blessed me with a wonderful, wonderful life! I want to share His love and gospel with others.

Freedom

Freedom and the family are under attack. I'm grateful we the Lord will bless the righteous. I pray we can be worthy of His help in combating evil, those who would destroy religion, family, and freedom.

Constant Need to Repent

I have a constant need to repent and improve. I'm grateful I can keep trying and seek after the Savior's help.

Forgiving Family

It seems everyday at some point or another I lose my temper or act annoyed. I have to quickly repent and my family is so sweet to quickly forgive.  Forgiveness its one of those Christlike qualities that hold a family together.

It seems the days melt together. School and housekeeping and meals seem to blend together to make pleasant hours. I love this simple life!  Often I wonder if we are getting enough done to give the kids the education and experiences they need to fulfill their life's missions. But we are doing our best so why not just look at what we are learning and accomplishing instead of all we have yet to do.

Old Deseret Village

We had a lovely day with our children at Old Deseret Village. The kids loved the animals, pioneer homes, cultivating a garden, making crafts, watching a blacksmith, riding trains, walking in the rain, and laughing together. I told Jessica, "Life would be so boring and less fulfilling without dear children to share it with!" Heavenly Father has blessed us with bits of heaven! Good night!

A Child's Faith

Little Tank is so full of faith. He speaks of God all the time. Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are constantly on his mind. He inspires me to always remember Them as well. All my children have such strong faith! I am grateful for their example.

Managers of Their Homes

Managers of Their Homes is a great book I just discovered about organizing large, homeschooling families. Because we are in a rather unique group it takes special methods of organization. I had been praying for help in running a Christ-centered home where we were able to accomplish what we needed to educate the kids, serve others, keep up with housework, etc. I know Heavenly Father inspired this couple to write this book. It really has helped! and will help immensely in the future. Heavenly Father guides us to people, books, movies, websites, etc. where we can gain the knowledge and inspiration we need. I know He answered my specific prayer for help in organizing our large family. I'm so grateful!

Train Your Dragon

For Pack Meeting the kids and I made a dragon pinata. We had a lot of fun designing and building together while we listened to "Little Britches." Those books are amazing! I'm so grateful we can be inspired and entertained by them as a family as we drive, clean, eat, or build pinatas.

At pack meeting, the Cub Master was very organized, prepared, and took the opportunity to share his testimony. He reminded us we all have dragons to train; be it, our mattress, our appetite, our temper, etc. We must strive to overcome the natural man. Heavenly Father let us feel his Spirit and I came away encouraged to train my dragons.

Early Spring

I can't believe it! It's been about 70 degrees the last few days. It's wonderful and fun! I'm grateful for the sunshine! So are the kids.

We've been blessed with safety as our kids do crazy tricks on skates.

Day Off

Jaremy took the day off to contour the yard for irrigation. He is digging shallow troughs that wind around the yard like a stream. He is brilliant! I'm so grateful he shares my love of dirt! We also share a love of family, literature, politics, remodeling, driving, Moab, running, hiking, camping, architecture, etc. I am totally in love with my best friend! I'm so blessed that Heavenly Father saw fit to yoke us together! Jaremy makes me want to pull hard and strong! And he makes my life fun, exciting, and beautiful while we plow along. I'm the happiest wife in the world!

Melly & Duke

Our neighbors, the Millers, have two adorable children. They were not born to a married couple. Their grandparents and relatives have asked me to teach them preschool and how to behave. A few days ago I had prayed to somehow help children who might suffer. This was after studying Elder Oaks talk, "Protect the Children." I told Heavenly Father I would love to adopt orphans or whatever I could of he would bless me with the resources and ability. The next day Sister Miller asked me to help. Many people have asked me to home school their children. I Always say no because I'm so overwhelmed by carrying for my own. And usually the people that ask me have the ability to care for their own children. But this time I felt it was an answer to my prayer. I am grateful for this opportunity to share the gospel and Heavenly Father's love. So Duke (1 1/2) and Melly (3) have come for the last two days for 4 hours. They love it! Our kids love it! Heavenly Father is blessing me with greater capacity and love. It's a miracle! For which I'm grateful.

Jaremy's Work

I'm so grateful for Goal Zero. They are so focused on enabling their people. Jaremy just shared another wonderful seminar which they had at work about goals and success. It's really helping our family too! Heavenly Father has a plan for us and is helping us learn what we need to in order to build His Kingdom and fulfill our missions on Earth. We are here to succeed gloriously!

Cousins

Today we were going to go to the Leonardo with our cousins but it was to crowded, so we  changed plans and went to the Zoo. I like the zoo mostly because there is a lot of good parcore stuff. I mostly do jumping. At the zoo there was a talking Perot, and that was a fun part of the zoo. Adelynne really liked the monkeys she would say like a ha for the monkey sound of who ha ha. We are very blessed to have fun cousins and a fun zoo quite close and most of all an adorable little sister.

The Van

It is such a blessing to have a van that runs great!  I can have a sleeping baby in the car and read while the older kids play at the park.  We do this kind of thing all the time.  It's a blessing to be close together sharing memories.

Primary Songs

Recently I remembered when my older ones were little I would play Primary songs in the background to invite the Spirit. For some reason I got out of the habit. But I've been trying it lately. It can add to the noise level. Everyone doesn't just quietly go about their activities with a song/prayer in their heart. Which is probably why I quit playing the music in the first place. However, do think it is a way to invite the Holy Ghost. Even if it inspires us to speak a little more kindly, pray a little more, or act with a bit more reverence it will be worth the effort. I'm so glad Heavenly Father blessed us with sacred music.

Moroni's Ordination

Today my wonderful son, Moroni, was ordained to the office of a deacon.  Moroni is strong and determined! He has a determination to stand for the right regardless of the consequences. He is a sweetheart with a big heart! I feel so blessed and humbled to be his mom. I learn so much from him! I love my dear Moroni!

Cranky

If I focus too much on the to-do list I can become a bit cranky and discouraged.  There is so much to do.  However, if I focus on making the people around me happy and helping them as I can it seems better.  Problem is with this approach I quite often look up and find it is dinner time and nothing prepared.  But somehow there has got to be a balance.  Somehow I have got to make this all work.  I know the Lord is showing me bit by bit.  The key is not to lose hope or faith and live worthy of the Spirit by not getting cranky.  The other day I was praying for guidance.  I felt the Lord whisper gently, "Don't give up on your goals."  At least I think it was from the Lord.  Maybe it was just me, but I'm going to work like crazy to meet these worthy objectives.  With the Lord's help we can do it!!!

Bus

One of our family's goals this year is to get a bus and convert it to greisel and into an RV with bunks, a bathroom, a kitchenette, dining sets, and a grand master bedroom. We are all so stink'n excited we can hardly stand it! It would man we could travel around the country for free (fuel & lodging wise). Last night we went to look at the perfect bus for our family. It only $6000.00. However, that is $6,000.00 more than we have right now. We just got out of debt. But it was so tempting! We will just have to work, save, and wait! I'm glad Heavenly Father helped us keep His commandments.

Night Driving

Jessica is close to getting her driver's license. She just has the test and finishing her 10 hours of night driving. We ask went our as a family for a couple hours this evening. We were blessed to get back safely and we were blessed to listen to Conference talks on the way. The later was very important because Jaremy and I were at each others throats for a bit. It helped me humble myself and repent.

Saturday Morning

We slept in this morning. In fact, I am still in bed pondering scriptures and the teachings of the prophets. What a blessing to take a relaxed moment to soak in the Word of God and feel His Spirit. Perhaps I have been to rushed to take enough time to really feast on the scriptures. I must slow down and calm down and invite the Lord's guidance by taking plenty of time to study the scriptures, pray, ponder, and share the Gospel with more love with my dear children. I'm so grateful for a testimony of my loving Heavenly Father and His Beloved Son. I hope I can live true to this testimony.

Visiting

Yesterday we were blessed to go visit my mom and dad and Grandma Keller.  Our van drove perfectly; we made the trip in safety and warmth; and enjoyed snacks along the way.  We are so blessed with ease and comfort.  We enjoyed a nice visit.  The kids love seeing their grandparents and playing with the toys and dress-ups there.

Today I am fasting and praying, trying to prepare myself spiritually to attend the temple this evening.  I feel I have analyzed my life and carefully chosen the path I think Heavenly Father wants me to take.  Yet it seems almost impossible to do everything necessary.  So I need to turn to the Lord, humble myself, work hard, and somehow stay focused on many different balls in the air.  My most important goal and mission statement is:  Simply follow Christ, speaking with the tongue of angels, while scattering sunshine all along the way.  I can do that no matter how long my to-do list is.  Heavenly Father will teach me and guide me on how to accomplish the rest.  So today in a weaken state from fasting I am begging the Lord to help strengthen my resolve, my diligence, my faith, my hope, my vision, and my love for others.

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Great Vacation

We had a great time in St. George. We camped, hiked, and enjoyed each others company. We soaked in the sun during the day and froze in our tents at night. Well, actually after the first night a bought a lot more sleeping bags and that helped a ton. I'm grateful to be in a warm, soft bed tonight without having to try to keep wiggly toddlers in their bedding all night and nursing in the cold. Adelynn woke up and cried a lot while camping, so I'm so excited to get some good sleep tonight. Camping makes me pray for ask those who don't have basic needs met or who don't have a warm, soft bed in a safe warm home. I'm so very blessed.

Packing

Packing is a huge thing to do before a camping trip. We will camp five days and four nights in St. George starting tomorrow. We are all excited; however, it does seem a trick to keep everyone on task. Jaremy has encouraged me to take time to meet with each child and go over the goal and plans and responsiblities with them individually. Finding time for that seems a bit crazy! But we can and will do it!  It will help each child contribute and take care of stewardships while eliminating nagging from Mom. I'm excited to try this new method. Heavenly Father will bless us with better leadership capabilityif we turn to Him.

Early Morning

I'm up! I've read my scriptures, but I'm still tired. The dang dogs! And Adelynn got up too. But we will eventually get everyone to sleep through the night!

Today we get to teach the kids about managing their money. I'm excited to read with the little ones and help them with their school. I'm grateful Heavenly Father has blessed me to homeschool my dear ones!

Cutest Little Muffin

Adelynn is learning to talk. She is so dang cute! We all adore her!! She says "Ease!" so sweetly that we give her about whatever she wants. Heavenly Father has blessed me so much to be her mother! I want to be better for and because of my dear children.

Driving

Out family loves driving together and having adventures. We are so blessed with a van that runs on natural gas so it its cheap and clean to drive. We make lots of memories sailing along the roads. Today w drove to Toole for the first time. On Thursday we are heading to St. George for a camping trip. It should be a ton of fun. Heavenly Father has bless us to have fun and adventures as family.

Organization

Oh, I just about get giddy about organizing!!! And labeling is even better!!!  You can organize until the cows come home, but until everything is labeled it will not stay organized.  I can't remember where everything is supposed to go and my children can't either.  Especially, if we find "it" doesn't work there and has to be moved.  Labels save the order and make it easy to change if needed.

Today we spent most of the day organizing the basement.  I had a ton of fun!  We got cleaning supplies, the 72 hour kit, bathroom supplies, bottled goods, totes, and buckets all in order.  It feels so good.  Of course, we could improve with more shelves and such, but it is pretty nice.  I'm grateful Heavenly Father is a God of Order and wants us to be organized too.