I don't know what I was thinking, but I thought this pregnancy would be easier. It's not! My emotions have really been affected. I don't usually have a problem with this at all. But lately I have to fight tears, fight antisocial feelings (I mean I don't really care to be with anyone except my family), and fight a bit of melancholy. I feel tired and hungry all the time. I've been putting on the weight. I just don't feel good or like myself much. Winter makes it all the more difficult. It's easier when you can get outside, soak in sunshine, and exercise and garden in the great outdoors for hours on end. It lifts the spirits and strengthens the body. Stresses seem to be adding up and I don't have the physical or emotional energy to deal with them. But I am so excited for the baby. All this trivial stuff just hopefully makes me more compassionate. I just have to push myself and do what I should, not what I feel like. Heavenly Father will help me get through the tough moments and phases that are part of every pregnancy. For this I am grateful. I also am grateful for the experience that has shown me these feelings and struggles are temporary. I do return to normal. And normal in my case is wonderful!
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