I went to the doctor yesterday. I came away so frustrated. I have had a real hard time just getting through hour by hour. Pain, itching, restlessness, breathlessness, fear, and tons of discomfort makes the last part of pregnancy almost enough to drive me insane. I need to be more submissive and selfless. I need to remember why I'm challenged. There's actually a baby in there. I'm not just hurting without a reason.
I've oversensitive lately because I'm pregnant and experiencing things that are pushing me to the end of my strength and endurance. It's good though! Pain and suffering can make one tough and compassionate. I hope I can learn that and not just go through it. I hope I will be a bit more compassionate and sympathetic to those around me. I hope I can be less selfish and more concerned about others. Besides Heavenly Father blesses me with recesses from pain and discomfort. It is not constant. I can get to sleep eventually and can feel comforted.
When I am experiencing pain I often feel angry, self-centered, and sorry for myself. This is pathetic! I pray I can be more submissive and meek. I pray I can think of others instead of myself. I really don't have it that hard. Others suffer infinitely more. I pray I can go through whatever Heavenly Father asks me to with love and meekness. Heavenly Father can help change my heart. For this I'm grateful.
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