Let It Go

I started off the school year badly, in that, I nagged the big kids about their homework.  Jaremy and I talked about it.  If they want help they can ask, but their education is up to them at this point.  Of course, I hope they will succeed marvelously, but if not it is their life.  I've taught them as much as I possibly can.  I hope it is enough.  I will try to keep being an example and teacher, but not a nag.  I have reminded them everyday of their lives to say their prayers, to read their scriptures, to be safe, to be kind... I have taught them over and over how to repent, how to make good choices, how to recognize the Spirit.  I have to trust it is enough and let them choose whether to live close to the Lord or not.  They are such wonderful children I know they will.  But I've got to back off and let them test their wings, show their own initiative, set their own goals, and such.  Because of my constant harping and reminding relationships were stressed and so was I.  As a control freak it is hard to let go and let my kids just choose for themselves.  Heavenly Father lets us choose, succeed or fail, plan or wing it, pray or leave Him.  He doesn't force.  He steps back and lets us decide.  Agency is a big deal.  It's time for the three oldest to have a lot more freedom from Mom.  Yes, they still are expected to do chores, but I will not ask or remind.  They will lose money or privileges if they aren't done, but we won't lose a good relationship. They will either study hard and smart or pay the natural consequences of having a difficult time in life.  They will either work hard and earn their Eagles or Personal Progress or they will miss the blessings that would come from that.  It is their choice.  Again, I think they will do awesome! and choose well!  But they are going to be the ones earning good grades, starting their own businesses, earning their own awards and money, etc.  Self-reliance brings confidence and happiness, so I'm going to let them have that opportunity by getting out of the way, by letting it go.  I'm so excited to see what they will do, how high they will fly!  I'm so grateful Heavenly Father lets me choose, fail, succeed, come to Him, or not.  He loves us enough to not force us to follow Him even if it is the best way.  I love Him so much!